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Sunday, September 17, 2006

went down for altar call today. that guy who prayed for me say a vision of me standing in front of a mirror,

"do not be ashamed of yourself do not put up a strong front in front of the lord. he accepts you and loves you for who you are . "

i feel better after that felt quite touched. maybe the root of my problem is the heart. i have been decieved i guess.

just putting this here for me to read and remind myself of this day. sorry to non believers. hope u guys dun mind =)

` slamdunk-ed at 9:03 PM Friday, September 08, 2006

it's friday and i hav just started with the bio syllabus. kinda finishing on chem and math and i hardly started econs,gp and chinese :X anyway. i had a lil fun too this week. dotaing with hian chong and the rest. mugging at joe's place, mugging in school, gymming with zhi wen and ying da. and of course celebrating ying da's birthday. i had my tests as well . stupid. mugged like shit for cellular division and NOTHING CAME OUT. hahaha. heck. wait for results and see la ar. haha.

but well, this week's kinda sad too. a friend of mine passed away as well. he was on the papers. he's the poor RI teenage boy that passed away due to unknown causes. i met that guy during my IMCB attachment. he's highly intelligent i must say. looked like the sort who has a bright future. but sadly ... hai. his friend got my msn address, added me and broke th news last night. i hope they find out the exact virus that attacked him. poor guy. so young, with a bright future and just gone like that. talk about life being full of surprises eh?

this week the world paid tribute to the sudden death of steve irwin too. when my friend told me he passsed away. my goodness. i thought it was a joke. the way my friend described about the cause of his death seemed like something out of the roald dahl story books. sad la sad. hai. i feel sad for his family and the world just lost one of it's best wildlife activists.

life indeed is full of surprises :(

back to mugging, away from ranting ..

` slamdunk-ed at 6:27 PM Sunday, August 27, 2006

today's my birthday, yes , indeed , my seventeenth is the most memorable one i had so far . i recieved loads of gifts and well even more well wishers ( a record high number haha) but i believe the best one was from GOD. yes indeed from him. it was not something materialistic, but a greater understanding of the trouble and the harsh week i had and also the sending of so many people to comfort me and to cheer me up

i realised that all my stress was a result in a lack of trust in him. i realised that indirectly , i havent enthroned him in all the aspects of my life. i WORRY too much and at times take destiny into my own hands(wrong move). i thus overwork and overstress. today, i have really let go of everything. no doubt i'll still be a mugger (yes, i'm a mugger) but ,
1) i'll know my limits
2) i know god is in control

so i'll do my best and let GOD do the rest

heard that lord ?

it's the worry of " how ?" "if i screw up , then a levels GG" " med school damn hard to get in, must pia like shit " instead of " Lord , i'll work my ass, you settle the rest." so yes, the best part of today was when evan was praying over the birthday ppl for this month and he told me that god's word for me is " FREEDOM " i wanted to cry, its the assurance i need for the rest of my academic life. that god will guide me through all .

indeed all the talks wif friends, tution teachers, parents did help but nothing was as great as wadever happened today.

god also sent loadss of ppl to wish me happy birthday, as of now , in total, it's like 5 cakes that i have eaten so far.
one from :

1SC7

AC Band ( together wif all the other birthday kids of this and last month)

my band mates

Cell Group

Section mates

i'm really v.happy. i was absolutely speechless epecially when they brought the cake to the void deck during "PORK LARD" ( haha martin) and when i recieved my presents frm crystal and eunarco. really .

THANK YOU:

1sc7 for the car plate

eunarco for the basketball and orange

crystal for my training sticks

wenlong,andy,kristen for the decorative sticks

xinyan,feroz,puaybing,zhen rong,zhi wen,rebecca,shaun,joel lee,theresa,kristen,mingxuan,yingda,martin,paul,wanyi,howei,
bize,cynthia,melissa,luqman,evelyn,renard,jasmine,kenneth,
shuhuey,meiling,dorance,weiting, Justin Tan for signing on the
SEVENTEEN YEARS OF IRRITATION CARD> (SHAUN, don't assume that i dont like the border)

Clairinet section for the mug

nabilah for the nice personalized card

well wishes from via sms from:

Sarah Jane Teo

David

Crystal

Euncaro

Kristen

Feroz

Zhen rong

Kakeru

Sean Tay

Conan Teo

Ervin

Jasmine

Justin wong

Vanessa poh

Joel Ong

Andrew Tan

Amy

Shu Ming

Vivian tham

Dorance

Nabilah

Benjamin tan

Evelyn

Ruth

Puay bing
to all who sent smses , thanks for trying or for sending it at midnight, hahah even if it was late, it's ok. thanks la ar. to those who sent at random timings today, thank you for keeping my phone vibrating, it brings me great joy to see your messages.

and to those who wished me online:

Brendan Mark Foo

Bing Jian

PuayBing

Special MENTION to doc LEE for the four birthday noogies at swensens yesterday.

to those that wished me multiple number of times, thank you v.much i really appreciate it.
sorry if i missed any one out and yes, i will post another one to those who wish me tomoorrow.(some people will tend to celebrate sunday b'daes on a monday)

even though i din really go out for dinner wif my family this yr cause my dad is sick, i reall did enjoy myself this year.

thanks everyone

god bless =)

` slamdunk-ed at 7:59 PM Friday, August 25, 2006

sorry guys

i'm going through a rough patch

i feel so stupid and so frustrated. so pent up inside sometimes.

guess i'll need a lil more time to get over that stupid mistake.

really feel like shit now.

like as if no one understands.

like as if even my closest friend doesn't really help. by not being understanding towards this shit and instead lashing off as "it just an excuse"

wth

` slamdunk-ed at 10:35 PM Wednesday, August 09, 2006

this blog was created in case i have loads of angry thoughts and no where to pen it down.

my dearest sister:
your prelims are SO FREAKING NEAR
yet you are still complacent
i've wasted LOADS of time talking to you,
scolding you reminding you.
it doesn't seem to register
hope you wake up after prelims

myself:
biopolis attachment was great
but i missed out hell lot on chem.
really FRIGGING frustrated wif ionic equilibrium
ionic equilibrium one's basics are here n there
i'm FRIGGING SHIT MAD confuseed wif ionic equilibrium two
i hate thermochem, text book screwed up my concept even more i think
havent really started for next week's math test
maybe i shld have just given up my attachement slot to some one else
promos in 2 months or less
i really wanna ace promos
i wonder, have i burnt out in my studies ?
have i ?

parents:
sometimes i get so stressed and i mess up
i forget to do certain stuff
yet i still get scolded
it would help to be a little more understanding sometimes
when you feel that your head is gonna blow after trying to fanthom some shit concept and fail
when you do your tutorial and get real screwed up answers
it doesnt help tt i've got stupid PW
that my chinese essays arent as great as they used to be
tat i've got average IQ

went back to visit my old house today realised that's it's a nice quiet place to be in.
really felt like sitting down there at the stairs looking around , or maybe at the garden bench looking at the clouds. to sit there and just relax. forget JC academics, forget school works and
relax

` slamdunk-ed at 9:25 PM Wednesday, August 02, 2006

ello there. i'm currently in the IMCB proteos building waiting for my IBV virus to cultivate. yes. i'm not in school. haha
yupp i got selected to go for the coronavirus and pathology biology workshop. the outreach programme they organised ...

ohhh so many ppl looking at me blog. not bad . nice research facilities but i think this is well an option for me only if i can't make it into medicine. loads of crap happened this morning. shall not elaborate. but well ,i din know that biological research posed so much risk too. ayish. imagine, one could end up being blown up just because he or she didn't close the lid of something properly eh ?

well , i'm supposed to be at the national day rehearsal now. but i've got this .

haha wonder wad they are doing now. lol

alrite gotta mug for my bio test.

i need like a sick grade to continue on my killing spree . DNA's got loads of shit to remember la ... yupp phase three of bio mugging begin !!!!

` slamdunk-ed at 3:11 PM Sunday, July 30, 2006

hai .

school just stinks sometimes. other than band and probably a few friends in class, some how other than that i really wish this is sec four all over again. back in sec school. WAY LOAD lesser stress la deh.

anyway. slept v. little last week . didn't do well for me in that expect. almost died during some lectures. at least i'm not that far back now. caught up quite abit .

freak, doubles ain't that fast yet and now i've got to develop my triple strokes. been tapping around triplets. took up my sticks just now and tried again . right seems ok already. my left . hahaha almost there la arh

now's just consistency and speed nia .

sounds easy right ?

lol hell no .

now to drop into a world of biology . i deserve that brain gatorade after suffering with my chinese textbook. been mugging for my chinese test . didn't go church cause of that( feel bad for not going) and now it's time for my second round of mugging for bio.

my brain feels overloaded liao .

haha sometimes i just feel like lying on a rooftop, alone , with nothing in my mind to worry about and stare up in the sky and stone. stone stone stone.

but the voice of determination within me tells me to press forward , last this few years and then i'll be free of the a levels .

` slamdunk-ed at 4:12 PM